Free association….. of concert poem…

How creative. I was totally drunk on Tegoshi  while making this..
His voice acting made me swoon all over…….God, How i want that voice to be close to me.
I rather never sleep again and be with tht voice forever
I didn;t even check the content i wrote
Will check it later… and will update if any changes are made.

All that surrounds….
Is just pure loneliness….
You call out to the empty road ahead….
Walking alone…..
On these field of thorns…
You wanted dearly for someone to save you…

You reach into the lake of hope….
Waits a boy that you have seen before,
He says “why can’t anyone understand me…”
You try to speak to him..
But those words got back to you…
Words won’t reach him….if he doesn’t open his heart..

* He says,
Is there some one…..to understand
..how much pain I am feeling now,,,
The sorrow will not go away…..
The world still crashes to my window…

Just someone…. to hear my voice…
Tell me those who could hear me…
Could you just lead me the way….

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Flashes around…
Only want to steal your pride.
Every step you took ..You are being watched….
You can’t find…
The true colours of yourself..
How much you wanted to wear a true smile…

You reached to the fountain of truth,
To ask a question for you to understand..
“Why can’t I… find my true self..”
She whispers back to you..
But all you could hear is the dripping of your tears
Words won’t reach you…if you won’t open your heart….

* *You ask
Is there some one…..to know who i am
Could you tell me who i used to be
The true colours of my skin won’t show
The world still crashes to my window…

Just someone…. to hear my voice…
Tell me those who could hear me…
Could you just lead me the way….

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* ** Hey, boy…
I am here to show you the road..
A paradise to search within yourself
The other side of the world
Shines brighter than the sun….

Just follow the whispers…
Of the heart that is still hoping…
You will then find…….your true smile….

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Yes I got a melody for this…. but I am using my voice as the only melody/

Who did i write this for???? Not one in particular…just anyone could relate to the song… then I will dedicate to that person. Mainly people who wanted to get famous or well-known….. but once they are in fame….. they have to face obstacles… like Expectations from people… and you are really lost in the dark…. you are suffering this alone. But……words doesn;t reach you because you kept on thinking hard about the problem….and you kept on wanting someone to lead you the way out of that sorrow,,,,

Then when you are outside, you feel lonely…. but everyone around you will be watching you, because you are popular. Flashes refers to scandals that tabloids wanted to show your colours, the colours which are being dye by them.  You are confused about your true individuality of who you really are.

But whatever sorrow you are feeling, I wish i could be the one to help you, to show you to be optimistic because thw world will be bright or dark depends on whcih side you look at it. I will take you to look at the bright side, and with the heart which is determined, you can smile freely… like you always did and be the person you always are.

Well…..This is different from other poems i written!!!
For this one, I want that person to depend on me… (hoho)
But yeah…… I think loads of people are feeling this. Being an idol, an actor or all, you need to wear a mask until you might forget who u truly are…..

angelofdevotion deshita!

From Tokyograph

http://www.tokyograph.com/news/id-3715

Actor Yuya Yagira has now issued an official statement regarding the news of his hospitalization, clarifying that he did not attempt suicide, contrary to early news reports.

Yagira explained he had gotten into a verbal argument with his family. During the quarrel, he took some tranquilizers that his doctor had prescribed for him, but he consumed more than his usual dosage. As a result, he fell ill, and he himself requested an ambulance. He was taken to a hospital, but he was able to leave later that day.

He assured everyone that he had no intention of suicide, and also apologized for causing concern.

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Alright, now Yagira said we all misunderstood.
I would love to believe you boy, about that fight with parents, it happens…
but about taking that whole lot of medicine and calling hospital yourself….
I just hope you are telling the truth….

But there is no harm lying. Once you opened that eyes of yours, you have to be responsible again….
You brought yourself back to senses …… and you have to accept that responsibility>
Denying about suicide is also good.
Because people would then be less worry about you and anticipate your appearences.

I just hope I, who has an experience of being with teachers and students before, would be able to counsel these students… That used to be what i love to do though. I want to help people…..

but since i am now aiming for researching… i hope i could also help people!