Amazing. I have just started this year and it has been 100 posts even before the year ends!

I came of a thought today.
Is your ideal man and the person you like, the same person?
Honestly, I really really really like Tegoshi.
I like him because there are so many points that are common between us, for instance, being a romanticist (and i’m a bit ecchi), loves people to pamper me, loves singing and writing songs (and poems), likes psychology, and also kinda…..selfish at times, and a bit overly-confident, but then yeah, I have my limits. Since I am already mature, I repressed all my selfishness down only to be that way to the people within my house. And I love people to pamper me. hahaha

However, if i were to develop a real relationship, a person like Tegoshi would be super fun to be with, but I might need to wait for him to grow up until he is 25 to judge who he really would be in the end. Because I am still changing as we speak, so he will too!

I rather like to say Sakurai Sho from ARASHI, is closest to my ideal type. He has the looks, the good family bg of scholars and politicians, with a KEIO graduate degree, always is good in studies, mature and fun, moreover he is able to communicate about any subjects relating to current events, politics, economy, global warming, entertainment…this is the kind of perfection a guy can have. But Sho-kun is really perfect. I really would like to have someone like him as a husband.

Since I am so young now, just 22 and far from being 35 to be married…. I will then choose the BF type as Tegoshi!

Kareshi to Koibito.
Tegoshi to Sakurai Sho!

angelofdevotion deshita!

This is my 5000 hits!
Well, I guess they might just look around at my site, and ignore the content. But fair enough, I am pretty happy to have 5000 hits ever since I debut the launched my blog, just a bit before summer. (Summer in Thailand, Winter in Sydney)

Really, I would have more things to write!
I just read my horoscope yesterday, and it was really good! XD

So i decided to try my best to live up to it. By getting a scholarship! I am putting all my life at this, to research, to be a good PhD student and to contribute my knowledge to the world.

I rather have all the knowledge of the world, then to have all the money of the world! Once you have all the knowledge, you can use it to make money, but if you just had the money, you wouldn’t need to do anything anymore. Just shop, travel, go on a cruise, but there is a limit of things you can do. By sharing your knowledge, you would be able to make good money too, and you have GOALS to achieve.

Life is meaningless if you don;t have an aim in life, what you wanna be, what you wanna do, and what you wanna do after that goal you achieve!

Okay here i go! On my list of New Year Resolutions!!!

1) Go home safely, and start to brush up on my Japanese knowledge! Also, I need to start writing my research proposal to Iwabuchi-san. Hope he will accept me.

2) Second, begin classes! I aim to be the top student! If not, one of the best!

3) Aim to get the scholarship.

4) If I fail to, I will start applying for new scholarships, maybe a PhD in Japan….go and then, look for scholarship later

5) work for a bit, just to save more cash for shopping dayo!

6) Officially put an end to one of my novels.

I could only think of 6 goals.
Will try more!

I am rather happy with wordpress’ nice. new design!
Well what I AM SO HAPPY about if my grades are all…. nearly released!

Since this is the Aussie system, It’s different from the GPA system, so I cannote say what my GPA is, My average now is a high credit.

I got a Distinction from my theory class, The one about Koreanwave, I have to thank my friends who did the survey which made me had such good grades!

I got High Pass for my Chinese Post Mao class, I didn;t find it too interesting for my taste. I am quite a pessimist.

And  Credit for my Japan in Western Imagination class…Okay na.

Yep. This is my Update!

Today, I had to hand in my report to my advisor, and since it was 6pm,
The building was closed. I had to find the way in by asking a guy to help open the doors for me,
and the lift won;t work without a card!

Then i went up to the staircase…..
and I NEED A CARD TO GET ON THE FLOOR!!!!!!

i was trapped there for at least… 20 minutes!!!!

I told I was going to die. (DIE because the atmosphere was so thick….)
Honestly.
But luckily this Japanese teacher opened the door for me and i got in.

Thanks!!
I made my way out!

Yokatta!

Even though the closure of the airport and the dismiss of the protesters have somehow put Thailand to ease, I am sure that Thailand will still not have a peaceful political future. As long as the puppet master is still there to pull strings, and the puppet government still wants to be part of the chess piece in his game, I just could say that the future is pretty dark for Thailand.

The reason I say this because, even Somchai is out, the new caretaker might not be the one everyone likes. Chalerm is one of the people that are expected to be next, but good lord, did you even how how dirty his hands is? Even his goddamn son had killed a policeman, and managed to escape from the trail! Is this the man who should be the next PM of Thailand? If you think so, there is really something wrong with you.He couldn;t even be a good father to discipline his own son and send his own son to jail. Do you think this man can be a leader of a country?

More over, people keep on giving evil people chances, and never gave good, respectful people a chance. Abhisit is such an educated, honourable, respectful and elitist young blood politician, who never stain his hands into sort of corruption or evil deeds, this is the kind of leader Thailand should need as a politician. Why does society fail to give these people a chance, saying that they are inexperienced, but to be honest, how to you judge how they are when you (aho) don’t even give him a chance!

And people kept on giving chances, forgiving to people who actually turned Thailand into a battle ground. I don;t really mind what policies is good for Thailand and benefits whoever, but the main thing is that a leader needs to have good ethics, have a decent mouth, and manage to be responsible. Apirak, who was forced into signing the contract on fire trucks and ships, and stuff resigned even though we all know he was not the corrupted one, and he has the spirit to step out of his position. This is the kind of politician we need in society. One who is responsible, not one evades taxes and one who shows his low class attitude by speaking of such awful swear words. Or even one who killed and hurt loads of people, just because they opposed him.

Honestly, when would this end? If a Deathnote ever really exists, please write those evil politicians’ name in, this may be the LAST WAY for the game to end at checkmate.

Is that even possible? The political crisis never ends. Unless he dies.But i guess it will long before he does, since hell would hate to have people like him there either. For example, those people can;t really die fast. Tojo didn;t die even he shot himself.

I am ranting too much for today. Well, I can’t help feeling annyed by situations like this!

I was inspired to write this…….. Imagine if it is snowing……

Sitting by the bench under the Christmas tree,
The festive season brought smiles to everyone’s eyes.
The laughter and the happiness that filled the atmosphere,
Somehow, that moment of joy, does not reach out to me.

The twinkling lights that shines on the tree,
Like stars to outshine the skies,
But the light within your eyes, I could not see
Darkness prevails, and that had pulled me deep down.

My blindness that oversees your imperfection,
The darkness that I have been pulled in,
My heart is forever, chained to you….
Never to let go, Never to stop loving you…