After the 3 weeks for Japanese language schooling.. I have to say I really enjoy every minute of it~

いま、私の日本語わまだじょうずです。せんしゅひらがなとぶんぽテツトをしました。

And I got like 95% and 97%!!!! haha

So now, I would be able to write fanletters in Japanese! Won’t it be awesome?

手越くんために。。わたしわあきめないよ！

Once one person grows up and started to step into the world, they will always experienced different kind of people….those who blends in perfectly with others, those who stands out but still be able to cope with others… and those who speak without concerning about what others might feel or think.
But then it comes back to one question. How do you present yourself to others to make yourself be liked?
Sometimes, less is more. You speak less, you might be viewed as a smarter person, and when one insults things you do not agree with, you should rather end the conversation in order to keep the bond without much hatred.
No matter how much you like a person, it is right to defend against him, yet you don’t create a battle between that person, by insulting the things they like. Cause arguments may just be as horrible and nonsensical.

So you may ask. How do I defend against those who kept on insulting Tegoshi because they like some other member more than him?
I want to insult them back, but then it brings to nothing. Tegoshi is not gonna be there to hear my arguments, no need for it. I learn to let it go. Its not like Tegoshi will help boost the economy and peace of the world, he will help me get my inspiration and I am being so devoted to Tesshi, so I dont really care people dont like him for being….feminine. I like him because I find the talent in him, and no matter which side he leans to, I will like him anyway.
Not that I lean to the right side myself. I lean NOT to the side of loving girls, but I like boys who seems to lean to the middle lane. But don;t feminine boys are more ……attractive.
Arnold Schwarzengger or Jude Law?
Some Sumo dude or Tegoshi Yuya?
Feminine boys are more attractive, and so I would say, I like them, and would be single for live if I did not have a guy who at least have feminine touch in him. I have a touch of masculinity too. I do martial arts, and Kinda… S at times. so, I guess…. i need a guys femininity to make me whole!

Anyway…. gotta go I have class tomorrow!
Okay
Jaa Ne

I havent updated for so long!
That is because my Japanese classes have started and I have no time to update or even to fool around on net at all! I have so much “しょくだい” でもだいじょうぶね　It will train me in practising my Japanese!

My classmates are actually really nice too. Lucky me.
The first week was not that hard yet, because I have already learnt some of it by myself and also from that 20 hours of kaiwa I did in 2007. I havent forgotten them yet so… haha.. I am okay with it.

Oh! I have seen Tegoshi in a skirt!
What do i do to get those nice legs! hahaha
I think my attraction to feminine boys goes as far as Tegoshi. I can;t stand Hee Chul. Because it is not the way he acts, but there is something about him I do not quite find appealing. But can;t deny SJ music is damn appealing and catchy. But still. my kokoro only belongs to Tegoshi and Sho-chan!

Hai! I will update tmmr. Got to get a haircut!

I watched this emotional episode of Junjou Romantica, I sure know that the next episode is much more tense and angsty….I myself have written this really angsty BL short story too..
Actually, I don;t really like love stories between men and women and their several love squares, but somehow, I am drawn into several triangles, squares.. blah blah blah of men x men.
I have one blog dedicated especially to my boylove fics but i NEVER update. Because I am too lazy to sign in!!! hahaha
I need to update though. I think my first BL fic deserves a proper and complete debut.

Today I went to J Avenue and have a lunch with Praew!!!!!!!

I really enjoy the nice conversations we have though!
It is indeed fun to have a nice meeting with my loveliest friend.
I think by meeting friends, we are being able to discover new parts of them while we were apart.

Praew will be coming back in the next 10 weeks, so i will meet her again! YAHOO!
This time i will go to meet Aj Adams.
I think he is part of a big inspiration of making me decide to be a teacher too!
I love how inspired he is when he teaches us. I am not a victim of him scolding me, since I read stuff and answer them as he wanted to hear.

I am starting to print out all my scanned books today, I will begin with my proposal laew la.

I read this line from the Genji Monogatari, and it really touched me. I think this line is really accurate. When someone leaves the world, people tend to cry and weep over her short life, but when she is still living, no one really cares how one feels and kept one being unaware of their existence and emotions of the deeds done to her.

Why not be the best to everyone while they are still alive, so we don’t have to repent this way?

Well then, I am so happy, I made a new insightful post after all those problems that had been preventing my muses from writing!

I felt sick last two days, I was food poisoned but I dont even know what I ate (cause I supposed to eat alot) that caused me to be so dizzy and had to vomit all that I ate!

But I am alright now! I just need to go to fitness tomorrow!
I really need to keep fit now. My age is adding up, and if  i slack off, I would have more fat in my body.
Even though my body is measured normal for now, I wanna be “thin” and reduce my fat amount in the body to around 10 -ish! Tegoshi’s fat rate is only 8 percent/…. Mine is 20 something.

Anyway, my psychological state might soon improve.
As I released some air of the balloon, I will be better.
my japanese class will start next week!!! How excited!
I am doing all the best I can!

All for today!