The violence caused by the reds has no end. They got gas tank trucks driving around the city, and lord knows what’s gonna happen!!!
The department stores are closed, fear that damages would be done if those people managed to go in. The red people are destroying Thailand, yet they claim they love our country so much, and is this what they are doing for the sake of the country they love? What part of this do they not understand>???
Violence is not the answer… You held people hostage to win something you will never gonna get anyway!!!

Burning the roads and stuff??????You people are so barbaric.
Violence is just gonna make you go crazier and crazier, and with that, you totally lost your mind and act so….

i Stick to the news for such a long time until my eyes are about to…… get dry….
……… Red bastards…

The red clashed into the hotel where the ASEAN leaders are, and can you imagine what kind of protest this have become? You know this is the face of Thailand. If you love Thailand, you should give some respect.
If you love Thaksin more than you love Thailand, then screw you all, hope you will become nothing when you die.
Thailand is already a pithole because your fucking leader had led it down there.
And i can see you shaking desperately to ruin it more. So you would be able to pull every Thai in your level?
Wrong step, idiots. Everyone is against your actions and it actually shows that you are even more stupid than we firstly thought you are!

Could you red just give some respect to save the face of Thailand?
Be at least thankful to the motherland you born into. Do not saying you love Thailand, and destroy it. Perhaps, you don;t even know that you are destroying Thailand, because you don;t have any brains. If you do, you would not do this.

Look, is this even reasonable??? Even if you don;t even like Abhisit, you should save the face of Thailand if YOU ARE THAI. PERHAPS YOU AREN;T. MAYBE YOU ARE some other extraterrestrial species who just want to kill everything off that looks good on earth. Down with the reds..

The reds are again creating more inconvenience for us, and that the citizens who are more or less neutral shooed them in the intersection where my Japanese school is. Since its the holidays, I am kinda sad i was not there to witness such excitement. haha serve you reds right!
(Apparently, those people who shoo you are the ones working in great offices and are the ones who are educated. At the end of the day, they should know that their stupid actions come to only bring more people against them.)

Somehow, not being in Japanese classes really give me loads of time to write here!
ahahah
And I have not mention about my dare God Tegoshi at all.
It is not that I have lost interest in him, it is just that, there is nothing to write about.
He still remains as someone who I respect and remains as my current ideal boyfriend type…..
I kinda like guys who are a bit romantic…. at least be romantic (like write me a song)… but be rational and reasonable.
Sakurai Sho still remains as my forever ideal husband type.
Apart from the fact that his dad is a politician, and his mom is a professor, he is also very intelligent himself.
But usually…. those kind of people are quickly taken.

I am once again, complaining on my status.

People reading my blog would have been bored and confused of where i stand in the line of sexuality.
Currently, I am still “pretty much” straight.
I would only turn lesbian for only one person “by default”.

I ‘ll write if i feel like writing again later at night.

The lastest news I heard is that those thugs have surrounded other roads which is really close to where I go to the gym.

Fuck, I have to swear. I don;t wanna grow mushrooms on myself by staying home all day.
If next morning they close the other road which leads me to my second home, I am going to be so pissed.
No more nice Eva.

I just wish I could make a deal with the devil, to get rid of every single red zombies on earth.
Don;t fucking care if one of them is someone I know. People I know and appreciate are those who has brains.
Instead of an Oxford educated man, and a convicted criminal, are they dead sure they gonna choose the criminal

They must be criminals themselves.
gOING OFF TO BED……

The thugs harmed our city, causing such traffic, claiming 4 such things that they know they won;t get it anyway.
An educated person would be able to understand that to have a president in a country means there will be no monarchy. I want monarchy. I love my king.

I am so tired of the situation in Thailand. I wish I was still in Sydney, so I wouldn’t have to stand all these crap, and see buffaloes getting lost in the city.

This post makes me sound like an absolute bitch. Cause I’ll do more bitching since I am so freaking pissed off at how those people are behaving. How uncivilized. They already brought so much inconvenience to us, and now they are here, trying to fight for something that they think they know so well…

This made me laugh.

I am just  not right in the mood to write anything decent today since I am so stressed at things that will happen.

Release some bulls…….that will help disperse the fucking red zombies.

They gonna run their ass off……..and i want to see their blood gushing out.
Their fave colour will of course look so good on them. especially if its their own blood.

This is the song I kinda copied the tune from the Slim shady please stand up…..

But you know, I am gonna write it according to the situation in Thailand now….

Here I go……….Now, Please start adding the tune to it!!!

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May I have your attention please?

May I have your attention please?

Will the red zombies please drop dead

I repeat, will the red zombies please drop dead?
We’re gonna have a problem here.

They act like they never been civilized before

Their actions like thugs, trying to be so cool (NOT!)

Their leader is back worse than before
Making us laugh, as he whines in the microphone…

It’s the return of the oh wait…..You’re the loser,
You probably use dirty cash on these zombies didn’t you?
And that cash ain;t yours everything you bastard,
without your cash, you are as good as dead.

Thailand had enough of that ET

Look, even his right-hand men betrayed him

Look at those zombies, shitting around, living off ET,
acting so dumb, but they are manipulated though.

Evil ET blasted Thailand with his new phone in,
Why? Cause, “ET CAN’T HOME ” hehe

As for the zombies’ question of when he will return,
Would it be soon or would it be later
I’m sorry, zombies but this is gonna hurt,
Only his ashes will return just like you will, jerk.

Their actions is on my nerve, Their actions is on my nerve
ET’s kinda lucky coz’ he’s got respect than he deserves!
This is the message I shall deliver to little kids,
You can become rich and never even know what effort is!

Of course Zombies gonna like ET, of course they do!
You are reincarnated from dictators of the century!
He is nothing but a man with the cash, always bribing..
you know a few years from now, you won’t even exist!

So you whine about revolutions and democracy,
and some day, you’ll stop speaking to dogs and speak human language,,,

There are a million of people just me think like me,

That ET is just a bastard trying to deal with menopause

So if you agree, come and sing with me

They’re the red zombies, yes the red red zombies
They act like cavemen, they are quite uncivilized
So won’t the red zombies please shut up, please shut up? please shut up?

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The raindrops which land on the face of the earth,
from the highest location which it could see,
down below, the chaotic world which pronounces of love,
There, it lands, going back to where it used to be.

Us humans, and all creatures of the earth,
For now, what if you only live once,
A single second that passes, there is no turning back,
Life moves on ahead……there is future is right in front of you

But who is that who shares the red thread along with me?
The new world that I would step into,
The life of mine, that would slowly change,
For once, I am not by myself……
But chained to another, up to the mountain where a new life begun.

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God…. This is the messiest poem I have ever written.
It is more like free association, so it is of course, directly written from my wicked thoughts of my mind.
But at least, It ain’t naughty.

I have been karaoke-ing for 3 hours today, singing loads of songs. Yes, be jealous of me, that I have a perfect karaoke system at home. haha.
And I really love that Kelly Clarkson’s Because of you song, and that Aerosmith’s don;t wanna miss a thing song is really really my fave song.

If only a really really nice bloke sang this for me, I am gonna give an extra 20 bonus point credit………cause i totally love this song for ages. and i have a rock spirit. So you know, rock ballads really really makes me happy.

I just realized that My voice joins perfectly with one kind of- happy-hippie-like music. You know “Stupid Cupid”? I think I sang that pretty well…. cause my voice is a bit naughty. and I can imitate loads of voices.
Anyway… haha

Gotta run for the day! ^^

Once in a lifetime, I would like to fly,
To release my soul into the wild,
And to taste the flavours of life.
The world has much more to see,
To gain knowledge and experience,
I yearn for the thrill,
That I never once experience.

I would like to dive down from the blue sky,
Just to feel the breeze that beats against my skin,
I would like to swim deep into the deepest ocean,
To find the world that is different from what I have seen.
To feel my heart beating as life is hanging on the cliff.

I would like to tear my mask away,
To be who I really am.
To be free from all expectations,
and let my true self show,of what I desire,
what I thought, and what I truly love.

I could not possibly walk there out alone.
Nor to wait for someone to take me there…
I might just imagine those piece of thrill I hope to have…
But once in a lifetime, I just hope to taste…
the flavour of life.

I went to the gym today again…tired.

The pain at the side of my thighs have not yet been healed, and yet, more pain would be taking me over! yay!
I sound so happy while talking about pain.
Sounds like an M  It’s kinda good, because Tegoshi is an S.

Oops….I might not be aware of the people reading my blog, but then, anyway….just hope they are 16 and above. Not healthy for younger teens.

So If you are not above 16, please kindly move away from this post. It is a discourse on adults’ topic, ou have been warned.

I ever read from this book which states that to escape from pain, you must be used to the pain.
That is exactly what I am trying to do, but instead, to get used to something, you got to enjoy it.
That will even make this post more kinky than ever…..

I have been reading the History of Sexuality Volume 1 , by Michel Foucault, it is hard to understand, but I think it is kinda interesting. I need to read the next to volumes. I wanna read the one about the sex and power topic, which will actually account on bondage philosophy on how the submissive would like to feel helpless and stuff…. interesting topic.

There are a few links with the masculinity topic I have been reading about, one of them is sodomy, and the shudo practice in the age of the samurais, but actually, Greek warriors are also ………..practicing sodomy. I kinda understand what he wrote about the discourse on sex during those days are more likely to link with the procreation, without any desires but to get make babies.

This post is getting even more explicit as I write. I did not write about anything offensive to any heritage or gender. Just a discourse on sex in general.

Anyway, I can;t wait to read about the bondage philosophy. It is nice to know about why humans do these kind of things, but I would never know if I would like it as a practice myself. But then, I used to wonder why hikkikomoris want to spend their time with themselves, and not to go out to socialize. But since that experiment which i did, I kinda understand. So in the future, when i find some nice dude to marry, why not experiment it out?

Oops.I did not say that. It is just part of my experimental research so I could put myself in other’s shoes and see if Michel Foucault is right or wrong.

The monsoon season returns after autumn
Lightning strikes, dividing the dark skies with the bright lighting,
A deep sorrow under my skin
Words that were kept in, shall never be revealed…
The emotions that stirred within,
shall only be the illusions from the imaginations.
A truth that shall never be known,
The reflections from my eyes shall never be shown,
Of the feeling that I hold inside.
For once, when can spring be present for me?
Been living in the monsoon, the autumn, and the winter trees kept me alive,
Where is the other side of the season that I have never seen?
Spring, one day, I pray that one day you will be right in front of me.