I hardly ever write something as serious as the importance of life.
Because there are a hundred reasons that life, mean a lot to us and also to those around us.

First of all, to you, what does life mean?
I always think that life means to spend my life the way I wanted, and only beware of any consequences I need to face. It is part of the truth to the importance of life, yet what is more important is how I could do to change something to a better situation. Even if to save someone from suicide, or to stop a fight, at least your life contributes back to the world and people around you. This is what I used to think. Perhaps, I still think so, but in order to die for what we believe, sometimes, it is way to extreme.

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http://www.tokyograph.com/news/id-3710

This is taken from Tokyograph

Reports have come in that 18-year-old actor Yuya Yagira was hospitalized early Friday morning after an apparent suicide attempt. Yagira had attempted to overdose on drugs in his Tokyo apartment, but someone called emergency assistance and he was taken to a hospital. His condition is said to currently be stable.

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Why does such a young actor who is so successful like Yagira wanted to such things?
His popularity is going really well, being only 18 and had achieved such admiration all over the globe, yet he wanted to end his life. He is not the only first actor who does that though.

Expectations. Expectations. Expectations.
Once one had climbed up to a position that a high, people wanted more and more expectations of that individual when it was at his limit.
We are not the sky that we can always climb up, everyone has their limits as well.
To push someone like this, will only push them to a corner that they really wanted to die.

Didn’t Toda Erika said that too? She was so tired, and people were expecting things from her. She wanted to die. (Cartoon Kat-tun 40)

Why does popular people think this way?

Just think this clearly. When our parents are expecting us to achieve something, we don’t want them to see our failure. We need to win that achievement. But popular idols and actors takes a step way beyond us. We are expecting of them too. Even though we are supporting them, they didn’t want to upset us. So they tried their best. In the end, they are the one who ended up suffering all on their own.

What should be done? How can society stop repressing individuals like this? Why does society expected so much of us and gets upset with us?

This is one of the reasons why suicide still exists.
In Japan, which has one of the highest rates of suicide, might expected too much from this indidvidual. If only the society lets go and welcome freedom to one’s life.

If one society stop having too much expectations….
I guess the suicide rates shall decrease.

I hope Yagira-kun will be alright. After this, I hope he would not suffer like this all alone anymore.
Even though I do not know him that well, i just hope he doesn;t have to push himself any further.
Suicicds does not only mean attention seeking…..but it really means an individual who wanted to tend his suffering in this world that has been too heavy for them, the walls closing on them, the why sky is clashing onto them.

Yagira-kun….please don’t push yourself…..
Please take care of yourself, and whatever  reasons for why you did this,
I hope you can understand that life is really precious
Please let go some of your worries, and look at the positive reasoning of life.
You are still young, and there are thousand of things you can learn.
If you fail, i think fans will understand.
Don;t push yourself if you can no longer climb up the sky.

angelofdevotion deshita

This was what i got from my friend, at 3 AM, Australian time.
But then…. he was in Silom!

OMG Did did….anyone…….NOOOOOOOOOO

I CAN;T THINK OF THIS BAD H Stuff…

Tegoshi would only be with Yamapi, and Masuda and Ryo…
NOT ANYONE ELSE!!

Why am I so worked up???
Don;t care……..calm down. I am in Sydney… I just need to calm the fucking mood down.
Oops… did i just swore?

I just swore out of jealously. GM had a chance to WORK WITH Yamapi. They were my kohai in school.
AND fellow Thai citizens who work at night CAN A CHANCE TO SEE MY GOD

How can I not be worked up like this?

DAMN. DESTINY. BRING HIM TO SYDNEY BEFORE I LEAVE.

WOW! It has been one year since I have been to Japan under the JAL scholarship!
TIME FLIES!

I wish i was back at those days when I can really really express myself as NYAKO-CHAN
……
Oh Happy Birthday Masuda Takahisa and Akanishi Jin! Hope you have an awesome year!!!

Well..I really miss those moments I spend with all my JAL friends.
It seems impossible for just 22 days, we have made such strong friendship….
We shared so many stuffs and learn so many new things from knowing one another…
You know, we are from different backgrounds yet we can still communicate and understand one another.
There might be some time when we might get annoyed by one another, as long as we have fun and enjoy ourselves, that is the greatest thing in life i have ever recieved!

I really loved those moments…
Wish I could have a chance to feel that way again!