I have been going to the gym so often that my body has been so used to the pain of muscles (or fat) soring…I feel so sadistic…. why spend like nearly a hundred thousand to get our bodies tortured???
HAHA. But i had fun so far… at least I dont need to go out in the sun, i am happy enough,.
In my high school days. I was the PE skipper. The outcast and loner who does not, and hardly belongs to any world at all. I have my own individuality since was really young, so my personality is too eccentric and strange for people….I would say I am rather a bit full of myself but then you know, i have been educated for so so long, meet kinds of people, so i am rather experienced just by observing random people. And yet, I still do not belong to a world now.
This is why I always wanted to go back to 2007 where i found a place where i could belong. That is those JAL friends of mine who finds me strange but they accepts the strangeness in me, and that is why I treasure them alot.
Very much unlike High school, I can hardly find a place where i could belong. I could only find individuals, but still too eccentric…..In University, again, I am an individual and I am pretty much hanging out with one or four pals…..and one lover…(Oops…. not a lover as in…lover. Someone who really love as a friend…..)
Right now, being brought out from my individualist world in Australia where i had so much inspiration and great ideas flowing, I am in a mental stage where i need to express. I do not belong to this world again, and should i shut myself in the world of my own just like high school again?
I think i am too mature to do that now.
the world won;t be long before i leave an enter a new world where i might either find a another place where i could blend into without changing my individuality, or where i could, like in sydney.
So then, what would be there for me,
for me to choose….