I am being so emotional……..despite this is just the beginning of the year.
I wondered why things never really worked the way I wanted, why I hoped for something and It hardly turn out the way I wanted.
People would have blamed it on destiny. I don;t believe that destiny could be that cruel, perhaps it is the way I am that is too, too outspoken, opininated, liberated and sometimes way too pure and detest the world’s horrible indecency.I am blaming it on myself who I think should never exist. I hated so many things in the world……..and the hatred inside would be burning the whole universe down into ashes…..
Actually… I am being emotional because of the novel and I writing….I am writing six different point of views of people chasing their dreams, and one of those is a totally different character from myself. I totally disagree with her ideas, but then this made me contradict myself alot. Perhaps a girl like that person I created in the novel would be someone who boys like. In contrast, girls gonna hate her to bits. I hate this character of mine too……hope I could kill her for good, but then the story is not a murder mystery………