Lately, I have been earning loads of money! BUT i don’t have a chance to use them…..AT ALL!
I have decided that I am not going to buy my Japanese N3 book since I have a month to take the exam, and yet, my whole 2 months has been wasted due to the political problems in Thailand. I have not even been in the heart of the city for ages! Sounds like an inaka, but apparently, I am just living in the outskirts, perfectly safe, and….without shopping and books! Oh Kinokuniya! I missed you so!
I don’t want to give anymore comments on politics, as the reds are just being more barbaric, the govt has been accused of being both “weak” and “murderer” and I was so frustrated over every single thing. I feel that I am having a menopause when I am just 23 years, and no. Not PMS. Feels more like menopause.
But today! I can feel my passion in writing rising up, and my muses have been provoking me to write more forbidden love to express my inner “fujoshi”. Oh God. I am so much in love with 2D boys. Lately, I had a crush on Gilbert Nightray, who is just so charming with his cool, quiet self, and he is a more like a “seme” that isn’t selfish at all. I noticed that a majority of seme are pretty….selfish, but Gilbert makes a perfect character.
I think I have isolated myself from the larger part of the society. First of all, I feel uncomfortable with large crowds, and I feel really frustrated when someone comes and talk to me so casually. There was one incident when I met this tourist who asked me the way in English. It is obvious, my English is nearly, almost native, I spoke with my American accent, and that tourist suddenly want my number! It took like 5 mins to chase him away! I don’t want to mingle with strangers especially men! God. You have given me such a hideous face but why is that someone needs to invade my privacy when I showed him the way. People are just too scary. Just don’t go asking for my number when you have just met me like within 5 seconds. DEAD SCARY.
Secondly, I think Bangkok is dead crowded. Whereever i go, there MUST be someone I know. Of course, the big, famous shopping centers were closed due to the terrorists, and don’t want to go out of my cocoon. Cause there will be people I don’t want to meet! I might sound anti-social, but I just hate to tell old classmates about myself. It’s boring. Just ignore me please. Especially one of those who I haven’t avenged on thee, I don’t want to come across you in my life, ever again.
Okay, that will be my rant for the week. I will be planning on my next (second) cosplay costume, sounds like I finally have some motivation, and someone to go with! yay!
Anyway, it’s another week, I’ll just keep earning. My cashbox is about to explode. I need to use them!