Emotions can actually drive you insane. Look at several of those artists or poets that have gone insane, for whatever reasons, they differ from one another, and I guess perhaps I might be a victim soon. Just that I am not as talented as them, when I would say, I was inspired before this major writer’s block I have. Life in Sydney gave me the most inspiration after High school moments, after that, I totally lost the meaning of my life. If this continues, ……… it’s gonna be hard for me to be sane again.
First of all, I don’t know what is making me feel so uneasy. Secondly, I just feel that I want to be forever left out and never to exist again. Next, I just feel that I lack inspiration so much, that I want to go back to the times when I was younger and so inspired.
I want to blog more often, but I just can’t. I just don’t feel like doing it. Worst, I lost several interest in many things I used to like. I feel that I am trapped in a labyrinth, that I couldn’t find the way out. What is exactly wrong with me, I couldn’t even find it out.
I am so sick of myself. So sick of those emotions I have all over. I just need to go out, take a break and step out of the boredom……
GOD. SAVE. ME.